It’s About That Time.
Posted by Chris on April 20, 2009 @ 8:03pmI’ve been doing a lot of thinking tonight. I just recently lost a dear friend of mine to cancer, who was only 38 years old. We used to work together, and would regularly go out for smokes all the time. His funeral and wake this weekend has me pondering my own mortality, and everything there is to look forward to in life. One of the things I’ve been thinking about is my cigarette habit, and how addicted I am to nicotine and tobacco. This started as a casual habit, admittedly because I had friends who were smokers, and I got sucked into that element all too easily. 12 years goes by, with a 2 and a half year period where I quit successfully, and I’m left with a habit that is robbing me of my health and making me feel like I am stuck in a prison of slow creeping to what will undoubtedly be a painful death of respiratory failure, stroke, lung cancer, or some other ailment that will no doubt be exacerbated or caused by, directly or indirectly, from my smoking habit. Based on what I remember from the period of where I quit, it was a one day at a time kind of thing, with many a period at the beginning of ridiculous bouts of withdrawal, that left me constantly thinking about indulging one last time with a “real” commitment to quit after that “last cigarette”. I was able to deal with these periods with Nicorette, but I was reading somewhere that your body will develop a resilience to that the second time around. Smoking was the stupidest thing that I ever took up, and I realize just how serious this problem is. I figure if I document this to a degree, it might serve to allow me to reference the steps leading up to the this process, and maybe be more conscious of them.
Ok…here goes.
knock, knock buddy… how’s that quitting going?